another awesome video.

Leo's Song from impactist on Vimeo.

awesome~

The Aristocrats from lonelysandwich on Vimeo.

about last night.

we'll never know. how hard it takes to keep it by yourself. lurking in the shadow just to see whether i am alive or not. this is all about last night. the lights are low. the trees seem so alive. am i in a dream?

you're changing plans and i've got something to break. we're holding hands and it's like the accidental mistake. you changed your mind and left me confused and defeated. this was not meant to be.

i've got my face inside my jacket and feel so unsafe. i never feel this way. i got caught in a teardrop storm. if you want to do this, do this for you.

if you do this, do it for you. take me back because i cant stay here. i've got nothing else to do. stop before you start because if you do this, do it for you.

almost a month..

so here i am, sitting alone in front of my laptop that is located near the kitchen, i am writing this blog just so i could flash back some things that have happened through my 1st one month in melbourne.. so here it goes,

i am now living alone in my apartment where is located near the city and a bit far from my campus, well it's never been a problem for me and i find my place is so comfy, to be lived alone.

my campus is so faraway, in the 2nd zone and it takes 45 minutes by train. there are only few indonesian there, most of them are locals. i find it difficult to communicate and articulate my true attitude around here because everything seems to be so individualistic. well, i do make friends but it doesnt matter much for me, as long as i can learn and study well.

but i do hang out with some friends from indonesia, hang around, visiting some festivals, drinking beers, shopping et ce te ra. i feel fine, comfortable and finds no difficulties on hanging out with the other indonesian student..

most of all, i miss indonesia. i miss jkt so much, i miss my parents, my family and my boyfriend. my dog, my room, my car, my friends. and so on. there's no need to explain how i feel for this homesick, you might have guessed better than me. :)

so that's all i think. i am so tired and longing for a warm bed, huh. and some love, obviously :(

xo.adista

short love story.

In a haze
In a stormy haze
I'll be 'round, I'll be loving you
Always.
Always.
Here I am
And I'll take my time
Here I am and I'll wait in line
Always.
Always.

here it goes, the short love story, simple yet never fails to fascinates me with it's honesty.
just like everybody knows, one is surely need love to survive in this wholechanging world.
let love goes forever, but don't let the sparks degrade too fast. make it short, and be happy.

homesick part one

I know now, how it feels to not having someone i love, i need, i miss around me anymore. i was overwhelmed with those feelings of being safe, being loved back in jakarta, but now, i feel like i am numb. loving someone but they're not around might be something that i will never do before, but i am doing it right now. loving him, taking care of him, even though i am thousand miles away can be something unique and challenging at times. i can do this, and i should survive with this condition. i might be weak but i can be strong this time. i will. wait for me honey, i'm sure we can go through this. :)

post-arrival

okay guys,
i am now settling down at my new home in melbourne, hmm.. so far, everything feels okay, maybe the part of being alone and far from anyone i love is the hardest pard. the second hardest is the part where now i should stand with my own feet, and walking towards everything new. it feels scary, exciting and horrible at all times. i used to be a girl who has everything in the palm of my hands and never really think about getting anything by myself. but now, everything, every single thing has changed and i am now stepping out of my comfort zone. it's not that bad, really. i found some new friends, new environments, new way of living and tighter wallet. hahaha.. and also, i am now involving myself in a so-called long-distance relationship. hmm, i don't really know how it feels. for me, it feels okay, i am on contact with my boyfriend, as often as i could but that does not mean that my relationship could go after my studies. and i applied that also to him, praying that he would study harder this year to achieve the acceptance from the state university, so he could come around and play with me :)

well that's all i think for today, i might not be able to write as often as i did back in jakarta, just because i am getting busier and busier each day. i am sorry, love

xo.adista